some poems...
Morbid Thoughts
the sun sets once again
darkness is now familiar to me
it's the only thing i'm left with
the only thing i'm able to see
hate has settled in
it has taken its control
eating away at my heart
devouring my soul
nestled in my mind
are thoughts you'd never dream
things that are unbearable
that chew on every seam
sick and twisted thoughts
have taken over my head
morbidness and cruelty
images usually seen in red
red the color of the liquid
that pours down your cage
but the beauty of the pain
can only be an image
also the color of the rose
across your corpse they have been placed
i always knew that you were
just another worthless waste
these pictures lock themselves
in front of my eyes they rest
it all may sound wrong
but to me it's my own test
i love to see the pain
that i have done to others and myself
i find it all rather amusing
even though it's obviously not good health
but why not make it funny
when someone else cries
cause in the end there's nothing
cause when it's over everyone dies
Nothing
open your ears look into the skies
there you'll hear the angel's cries
up above and down below
tears filled with pain,but too hard to show
screaming thoughts,kept within
all of which must be a sin
unanswered questions,things left to wonder
my ears can only sense the hateful sounds of thunder
hate for love,yet love for hate
thoughts run frantic,wish to sedate
beautiful disasters,eternal screams
angelic scars,reopened seams
unseen tears held inside
the internal love has finally died
dripping blood,sharpened knife
lost apologies payed with my life
too many mistakes,will never learn
the fire inside has ceased to burn
mind is closing up,heart has become rotten
just let me take it away,let me be forgotten
All In All
All this pain that i can't take
every morning i pray i don't wake
All these tears i hide away
how i wish to die each day
All the thoughts that go through my head
mostly things i've left unsaid
All the feelings i hide behind
some of these things you'll never find
All these emotions locked within
how i hate that i can never win
All this love i'm too numb to feel
how my broken heart will never heal
All these peices too shattered to rebuild
too much emptiness too deep to be filled
All the times i wish i were free
won't someone please just kill me
Razorblade Kisses
nothing left,no one inside,
the dream is over, i'm still alive
the whispering trees,the whistleing wind,
soul locked up,no one gets in
closing eyes,fading smile,
looks as though i'll be here for awhile
misinterpreted words,hateful screams,
happiness dead,even in my dreams
blackened heart,frozen soul,
now what's left is a gaping hole
too big to fill,to big to seal,
nothing can help,i'll never heal
to scared to go on,but don't wanna stay,
old forgotten things,just won't go away
unresolved conflict,going through my head,
unforgettable sorrows,always left unsaid
unwanted memories,left for my torture,
nobody realizes,seems there's no cure
don't even bother,i've lost all my wishes,
just let my veins feel their razorblade kisses
